I Might Be Actually Growing Up

This post was not supposed to be like this.

I was going to tell you all about my amazing college tour that I took this weekend, I was going to talk about how excited I am about the future.

That is until I realized, I´m not ready.

I´m not ready to leave my hometown. I´m not ready to leave the friends I have had since kindergarten. I´m not ready to not be able to see my parents every single day.

People always say I live a sheltered life, and they are 100% right. I have lived in the same town my entire life. I have only moved once, I was 3 years old, so I barely remember it happening. I went through elementary school, middle school, and so far, all of high school, with the same 275 kids.  Everything in my life has been the same for so long, and I can see that I´m coming close to the end of this chapter.

Not that I am not excited about college, I actually started crying on my tour of the University of Missouri, because I am almost confident I will go to school there in 2 years. I loved the school so much, I was actually sad to come back home and realize that I will not be back until spring when I do my private tour.

It´s just weird.

I´m not used to having to actually think about my future. Normally my biggest worry is if I got a decent grade on my math test, not if I am 100% sure on what field I want to go into.

The thing is, I am one of the lucky ones. I know I will go to college, and I know what I want to major in (Sports Journalism), most kids my age have no idea what they want to do with their lives.

But I am still terrified.

All these thoughts have been running through my head, on what I want to do with my life, what exactly I want to be. What do I want to be known for?

All I know is that I want to set this world on fire.

I´m still not sure exactly how, last week it was investigative journalism, this week it is sports journalism.

It will probably change again soon.

So, that is all I have got to say. I promise my travel blog will be up SUPER soon, I just had a lot of word jumble stuck in my head, and I had to get it out some way or else I would have exploded in APUSH.

I hope this may help anyone who is feeling the same way I am, we are all in this together. Yes, I just referenced High School Musical, deal with it.

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