Hey guys! Long-time, no talk. I have been prepping for my senior year, my AP classes and my internship all summer. Summer also is just a good time to enjoy life and live in the moment and all that cliche stuff.
Now onto the good stuff. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t terrified for senior, it is full of so many lasts that I am just not prepared for yet. Walking into my first day was probably the saddest and scariest moment of my high school experience and I don’t think it is going to get any easier.
I think writing out all will make it less scary and maybe even help someone who has the same fears as me.
1. That I won’t get accepted to college.
This fear has been ingrained in my brain for as long as I have been thinking about life after high school, but now that I am a senior, it seems like it could actually happen. I have had the same dream school since freshman year and now waiting for my decision to be sent back to me, I feel like I am not good enough to get in.
2. All of my friends with forget about me.
I have definitely had my ups and downs during high school when it comes to friends. I was left out, made fun of, and completely thrown to the side for people who are “better.” And while my friends now are amazing people, I still feel like if someone better comes along they will leave me in the dust.
3. I am not ready to leave my bubble.
I have lived in the same town my entire life, I have gone to school with the same kids since Kindergarten and I can anywhere with my eyes closed. While I have craved a new adventure, I am terrified to leave the safety my town has given me.
4. I won’t achieve my goals before I go to college.
This year I have created so many goals for myself with school, my internship, this blog, and for cheer. I don’t know how I will be able to let go of these things, especially cheer, if my goals cannot be achieved.
5. College won’t be everything I dream it will be
I would be lying if I said I wasn’t excited for college. I have been looking at dorm inspiration on Pinterest since June and I’m already trying to decide what clubs I want to join. But what if it isn’t everything I want it to be? What if instead of making new friends and having great classes everyone hates my guts and I hate my major? What if my roommate sucks and I can’t find any clubs I like? I don’t know what I will do if I hate college.
6. I will let these fears stop me from enjoying my senior year.